Continuous Struggle of Me

Learning to love an issue without losing the trust
Panic to promote a soul, that's frantically  falling for love.
Decisions become a trait to continue to develop change.
Found distance between the range of having heart and being brave
Afraid of whats to come, but can't take a step back to run away
Constantly trucking forward
Leaping over walls to reach my full potential of being great.

The Passive Aggressive Love

Am I ready to fall.
Risk everything for it all.
Let her leave the toothbrush.
Find her panties under the pillow after we fuck.
Hold her till she feel safe.
Kiss her to feel love once again
Lips brushing against mine.
Am I ready to cross that line.
I'm scared to take the leap.
Could I recover from the pain if she hurts me.
I feel her when shes not around.
Is that me being ill or insane.
Mentally I want her, emotionally I want to divorce her, and spiritually I want to elope with her.
She's breath without air since she suffocates my mind.
Loving her feels the best, but leaving her leaves me deprived.
Quenching my thirst, she devours my high.
Enough to know that loving her was the best part of my life.