My member was
dismembered in the month of September,
December the
weather was gray,
I rubbed my
stomach everyday
Wishing the pain
of losing my child wouldn’t stay.
Back track to
March.
Hot and heavy,
He was ready, I
was not.
I closed my legs.
He whispered in my
ear, “Don’t be afraid.”
A tear rolled
down my cheek,
“Please not
today. I’m not ready ok.”
He begins to
muscle my legs open while kissing my neck,
Then tells me,
“I love u” just to seal the deal with my legs.
I then open myself
up to a world of neglect,
38 missed calls,
and no responses to any of my texts.
Three months
later June opens my eyes,
To my surprise I
noticed my stomach was getting bigger,
But it wasn’t
from the McDonald fries,
My immediate
move was to go to the doctor to find out why,
The doctor told me
I’m pregnant, and then I die,
My whole body
shuts down while my tears touch the ground,
I was in fear
that my baby wouldn’t have a father now,
August comes
around, as he opens the door,
To I the world
was getting a little lighter,
Not before life
turned cold,
I accepted him
back in my life,
He wasn’t easily
as accepting as I.
We argued
everyday making my life turn worst,
The weather
turned blue, as wet stains stayed on my shirt,
From tears I
couldn’t stop from coming,
the kicking in my
stomach made it worst.
September I was
drained,
Family didn’t
see me the same,
I became a
stranger to the world,
My member was
dismembered,
While sitting
trying to eat dinner.
This boy raped me
of my innocence,
Took away my
pride,
Took away my
soul,
Took away my child,
His words were
swords,
Dicing away at
the embolic cord.
I’m just torn.
Sitting in a
dark shaded room,
Attempting to
touch what was once not born.
He left me a
woman scorn.
